This is a new type of poem for me. I prefer the rhyming types...however, when I sat with my pen, the words flowed...very powerful and very deep....yet so true!
Secrets & Lies
Secrets and lies
hurt and pain
That's my normal.
The put downs from my family
I'm not good enough
I'll never be
who they want me to be
But how can I?
I'm not a part of them
The secrets
My birth mother
passed me to strangers
I was abandoned
by my mother
My own flesh and blood
For a man.
I was abandoned
Of coarse I don't feel worthy
Adopted - I never knew
Found out from the town
the secrets
the lies
the hurt
the pain
That's my normal
That's who I am
Lost and Broken
Abandoned
Unpublished
Written by: Mindy Lee
October 27, 2011
ugh..the scream of a broken heart...full of raw and intense emotions and pain...felt
ReplyDeletedang...so did your adoptive parents love you? it is hard...my wife was adopted...she never really thought of or pursued her 'prior story' because she always thought of her adopted family as her own...but then again she was adopted at birth as well...
ReplyDeletePowerful write. It's amazing when the words flow like they do, when they want to. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteYou took up the challenge and have written a absolutely beautiful poem. It's real and seeded with so much emotion, many readers will relate to you pain and hurt. When avoid rhyme sometimes we tape into purity and our poetry avoids being contrived. I love this poem.
ReplyDeleteit's amazing how when we are old enough to realize these awful lies, we are mentally brutalized, and obsessed with how we've been treated for so many years.
ReplyDeleteHugs you! This is a very well written poem that aches and reaches for more. Even in my own family of origin I've felt like this. Resonates with me deeply.
ReplyDeleteMindy...my heart hurts! What a powerful voice for you! This is a quantum leap from your previous posts. I was scared to let go of my rhyming habit...but when you do, when you don't control the words, the flow...well, you get writes like this. Amazing share, lady. Encore! You write and you write and you never, ever doubt your worth. I'll come down the lane and slap you upside the head if you do. Seriously...
ReplyDeleteReally amazing write. I'm touched that you'd share this, and it's definitely heart-wrenching to read your account, for you, as also knowing how the destruction of the family entity is such a devastation, especially when it occurs at a young age. Great piece, again, thanks for sharing
ReplyDeleteThese kind of secrets have such a profound effect upon people. So many of us struggle with that "I'm not good enough..." feeling. Thanks for sharing...you are good enough. More than!
ReplyDeleteAmazing honest write that has left me quite sad. Thanks so much for sharing and please accept a BIG HUG.
ReplyDeleteAnna :o]
An honest and touching share...secrets and lies can destroy a family and one's self esteem...
ReplyDeleteWow, I love the emotion in this. Thanks so much for the personal share. =3
ReplyDeleteIs that really how you feel about adoption? I think it one of the most lovely of things... But this was a powerful write and made me want to give you a hug.
ReplyDeleteI mentor a young woman who was taken from her birth mother when her sister died of starvation and she was diagnosed with failure to thrive. A powerful expression of pain.
ReplyDeleteReally moving piece. Amazing writing.
ReplyDeleteOh, I feel the hurt!
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